I’m Scared…

I wasn’t sure about posting this one. It was actually written a week or so ago. Although it’s obviously drawn from personal experiences, feelings and emotions I would say it’s more of a semi autobiographical piece.

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I’m Scared…

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I’m scared all the time,

living a life full of fear.

This virus attacks the body,

but it can also poison the mind.

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My days are spent waiting,

for things to turn horribly wrong.

At night my dreams show me,

the pain of what is to come.

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I had some problems before,

took medicine to help me escape.

This time there’s just nothing,

but darkness taking ahold.

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It’s hard for me to admit this,

but all I can do is survive.

The guilt will be along later,

I should be better than this.

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These words are self indulgent,

but perhaps you feel it too.

Maybe by sharing my fears,

you see you’re not all alone.

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2 thoughts on “I’m Scared…

  1. “It’s hard for me to admit this, but all I can do is survive.”

    I believe this, in reality, is all we can ever actually do. It just gets disguised in “normal” times, and I think everyone everywhere is struggling to come to terms with a truth that has been laid so bare. Hang in there. Stay well.

    1. Thanks. I think this line was written (sometimes I only think I know where my words come from) as a reminder that sometimes it can be difficult to be continuously exposed to all those doing amazing/wonderful things during this crisis. Of course we shouldn’t stop telling those stories but for those just ‘surviving’ they can cause guilt and further distress. It’s a balance…

      Stay well.

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